We can do this!

Something I have never really said to anyone including myself, since Brad and I first started to discuss having children, is that I have no idea if we can have a child. First there is the making one part, well we know we can get pregnant so check that off our,” to do list” and I have loved the experience of being pregnant so far so that’s great. But here with a little over three months to go, I’ve started thinking more about that fact that Rourke is not going to magically teleport outside of my body and when he does grace us with his presence he will be helpless and completely dependent on two people who have little to no infant care experience. Luck for him my Mom is going to stay with us after his birth to make sure he survives the ordeal but again he has to come out first.

Labor sounds awful… there is no getting around that. Any action were you are in excruciating pain for hours on end and chances are you are going to poop in front of everyone in the room and not care, doesn’t sound like a good time to me. I have a real low pain tolerance but also a dream of having him naturally so we will see which part of me wins out. But as I saw this weekend when I went to meet Kaylee and Nick Hansen’s new baby boy Kasen, it is all worth it for the outcome.  I have avoided holding babies out of fear my entire life (if you drop someone’s baby they are super hard to replace) and holding Kasen was really the first time I had tried it. The first thing I learned as they are not as breakable as they seem and the second is to hold them is to love them, or at least I fell in love with Kasen. I know if I can love a friend’s baby that much after one hour with him in my arms; I will poop on a table happily for Rory. I also, felt better after leaving the Hansen house about bring Rourke home. Kaylee and Nick really made everything look so natural and easy. Kaylee did admit to only having 11 hours of sleep in in the last 4 days, but I had never seen her so calm and happy.

Brad and I have our first Baby Class on Wednesday and I think with a combination of knowledge, love, and support from our family, that we can do this!